Saturday, December 1, 2012
Art in the World
Art in the canvas before you
Art in the field of life
Art in the trees and the sun
Art in the melody of cicadas
Art in the blue of the sky
Nowhere the same
Art in the painter’s hands
Supporting and moving
Art as the dance of the eyes
Art so we see together
Art that brings day into night
Art of the magically inspired
Art of the stumbled upon
Art that doesn’t yet know
The name it will own
Art never made for the money
Art without parents or friends
Art as the world is given us
Art in the shadows and light
Art in the color of pigment
Art when you cannot imagine
It will ever come through you again
Art as a privilege of living
Art as an illness
Art as the thing held apart
Art that no one understands
Art after school after work
Art for the other in you
Art in the mystic order
Art that includes all of us
Art that finds the human
Art that is soul
Art, free and of freedom
Art given up as a gift.
John Sevcik
Sunday, November 25, 2012
The Bones of the Dead
In 1937, Amelia
Earhart and Fred Noonan
attempted to circle
the earth in her twin-motor Lockheed Electra airplane,
but vanished enroute.
This poem propitiates by praise
The god of incompetence,A saint later named Murphy:
Kilroy who was there,
But never came back,
Would be his accuser.
In any war there are dead
Flung from the sides of plans,
Unplanned for, idiotically lost,
Kinder perhaps than the intentionally
Killed, the maimed, the limbs
Amputated needlessly.
Where have you gone,
Intelligence that seeks an intelligent star
Somewhere else? Who would believe
You are sane in your self-assessment?
The bones of the dead shine at you
Resplendent with teeth,
Gleaming of your cunning,
Needless death, early death,
Death found in poorly made planes,
Or plastic that chokes, or bottle
Caps that have suffocated playwrights
Of infinite talent.
How can we package ourselves
On these armatures of memory,
These instant fossils that mock
The transgressions of sense, or logic,
Or care? Amelia Earhart
Flying with navigator – a man –
Trouble enough, and one with a flinty
Look, a small potbelly;
Neither of them well-fed,
Skinny in the best of times,
Boney in appearance,
Saddled with our watching them,
The gods of celebrity and daring.
He in her shadow, what was he,
The star spotter, the one with the sex-
Tant, pointing at the sun, the one
Measuring the temperature of heat
On the waxy oiled face of Icarus,
Who has two engines and a shiny
Aluminum skin, made to round
The round world at its fat girth.
And they only bone and flesh after all.
Talking like gods in radio waves,
Not able to hear the earthlings talk back,
They only hearing some garbled words,
The words overheard of the passing of
Strange publicity. Oh, to only read,
And hear at the short wave set,
No cell phone, no mobile, no inter-
Net, no net at all, just a plane and the
Into zones for war. Idling forward from
Lea, on
And modern and safe, of course,
Yet sun, blinding sun,
As an ancient warning rises in their eyes,
As they rise into tropical
Jews already in danger
All over
Rattling with the prophecy of engines,
Their hunger, their odd parallax
Like searchlights that show
Only the fury of forward motion.
Progress, it must be,
Progress is what is before us,
Wherever we go. Dolts
That we are, forgetting the past,
Used to it, sick of it, not good enough
Of it, just the next thing, the next objective,
The compass pointing mechanically,
We going toward the flash of camera lights,
The signing of book deals, the betrayal
Of value for money. Rising
On air buoyant with the wreckage
Of the Great Depression, rising
Over the islands of ancient, pre-
Antiquity, rising into blind ambition
To be all the way around the course,
The first woman to do so, the first up
The hill of achievement, and so, the first
Risk of everything for a moral purpose.
Down some water and a cracker or two.
Not too much, as it will fatigue,Not too much work down there in the gut,
Keep it hungry, keep the head up, don’t
Listen to that idiot too much, he has a drinking
Problem – alcohol, I mean – tanked up
Most days he’s not flying. That’s the way
The liver likes it, and the kidneys. So
What, it’s the fashion to be fast.
The other one admired the Nazis, and their planes.
What became of him? They stole his baby,
Wrecked his life for him. Another set
Of bones, found broken-skulled in a roadway
Ditch by a truck driver relieving himself.
That is what you get for opposing
I am not quoting the FBI or the government,
Only that god of incompetence, Murphy, who
Went along with Lindburgh through frozen wastes
Of air, trying to drop him into the
But the young man was too daring and plunged
Willingly, dared all to melt his wings
And survived long enough to see
And alight in Paris, but Murphy, god,
Along for the ride, saw more chances, every day
A chance, once the die is cast and the star is so
Bright that millions dote on the spectacle.
Are you following me? Of course, we all
Have our little Murphy after us,
But how much do we tempt him? Not a lot.
Here, though, propellers churning before their
Wasp engines, affect obedience to the pacifist
Amelia, and all her good psychic chic,
The soul not turned to dust just yet,
But more splendid than an aviator who sympathizes
With the Boche, this one is like Swiss Cheese,
Neutral, not aware she is really
This cannot go well. Murphy wants to have
A war, and all in we must go, for there is
Folly foretold, and all in we must go.
So thus the radio doesn’t work as planned.
Either they hear you, or you hear them, but not
Both. Talking at cross purposes. The radio
Direction finder like the headdress of Hathor
Above the cockpit, what good is it? None.
The antenna below the fuselage fell off on takeoff.
Who needs that? The fuel they need just barely enough.
And so a needle in a haystack will be found,
Thanks to a man named Noonan. Murphy
Is his second cousin. He swings the sex-
Taunt up to the window in the waist of the plane,
And spots clouds, clouds, clouds. Who can predict
The weather? Nobody can, if Murphy can.
Murphy, the regulator of fate,
Turns the hands of the clock forward,
Minute by minute, Longitude by longitude.
Seems the refueling island should be near.
Of the plane. I-TASK-A, reads the plaque
On the steel ship’s prow.
Two earnest seamen only yesterday
considered the birds on the island,
And the runway built only for this flight
Stopover, and hurried ashore with guns,
And boxes of ammo, unlocked the safeties and
Slayed in staccato an entire migration of terns,
Rudy turnstones, frigate birds, curlews,
And assorted sea gulls. Blasted to blood
A sacrifice on the runway altar
To the aluminum choirs of angels
Blessing Amelia and Noonan
With feathers and popsicle-stick bones
And the heat of a tropic night,
So they smell right away. Unlucky
Rides downwind, and now there is also
A portable radio-direction finder
And an inexperienced seaman on the flat
Skillet of island, wondering how and when
He should start wasting its battery power,
And how it even works – where to point it,
What button to push and when.
Now comes the rendezvous with history.
She, the goddess Amelia, pilots through nightInto second dawn, while Noonan must scuttle back
To the waist of the plane, between the tanks
Of extra gasoline, to shoot the stars (clouds),
Or now the rising sun, and pass his findings
To her through an opening over the fuel
With a pole that ends in two wooden
Finger sticks that tweezer their position
On a paper note. She at the radio
And direction finder can yoke and yaw
And utter the words of search,
Calling, announcing, to whomsoever can hear,
That they are unable to see the water, or island,
Or
Only clouds, but that they are on a line
Passing northwest, then southeast, northwest,
Then southeast, who knows which way,
Somewhere near Howl-for-Land.
The others below bray back unheard
That she should use Morse code, like
They do in the old days, because it is
Easier to fix the plane’s angle of direction,
And real men don’t like to talk,
But prefer to imitate the ticking of clocks.
Neither Noonan, nor Amelia, nor Murphy
Know Morse code. Too modern for that.
Every half hour they and
Talk past each other.
Who knows from where to where?
She leads them on to think she is north,
Because that’s the first thing she says
Every time. Never mind
Nothing is north of
Nor is nothing North of I-TASK-A.
What is north is an empty ocean of water,
Miles deep. Eventually silence.
The untrained seaman
Returns to
With the radio direction finder:
Strangled and useless as a dead shorebird.
And Noonan and Murphy and the great waste
Of miles-deep water, unrelieved by any sense.
Transmissions from Amelia resume after a few hours,
Hours after she must have run out of fuel.
These signals come from the south,
But Murphy is riding to the rescue going north.
It is all going to work out, Murphy assures
The press, who tally up the cost, and blame
Causing nervous constriction of budget strings
Everywhere.
Somewhere, Amelia Errorheart
And Noonan and Murphy sit stranded on A coral atoll, on a reef in sight of a shipwreck
From 1929 – the
As the North Witch, who caused the stock market
Crash. There they sit, alone,
Except for a little fuel and radio battery
That needs the right engine running
Next to the booming surf,
Whereupon nothing is audible anyway
On the infernal radio. (Perhaps the entire problem,
Right there.) Eventually messages heard world-wide
On July 2, July 3, July 4, July 5, July 6, July 7,
July 8, and July 9 are passed off as hoaxes,
Strangely emanating from a transmitter
Southeast of Howl-for-
In the
But incompetence is the rule of everything
In this part of the century.
Not like us. Not like true post-modernity.
Nothing like this ever happened to us.
We are perfect. Just that old-fashioned group
That built the Titanic with Murphy,
And strained at every limit. We go limitless.
We don’t strain, we give up rhyme and meter,
And the breaststroke for the doggie paddle.
Whatever works. We need all the help we can get.
Support staff. Essential waste. Don’t go it alone.
Bring up the rear. Simply unknown then.
There they explore, looking for water,
And a meal. There it is, a date on a desert island,
Beguilingly covered in trees and brambly bushes.
There are coconut crabs that leave foot-tall mounds of tailings,
And steal your food;
There are rats in the millions, hungry for you;
There are strawberry hermit crabs anxious to bite you.
There is nothing that can sustain a person,
Only heat and dysentery and scrounging.
Castaway. Truly cast away. Forgotten.
Psychics call her husband and hold séances.
He attends some of them. They answer questions.
She herself on the radio put their position at
Nearly the point they were –
Garden this: It is absent of fresh water.
And nobody looking, nobody coming to get them.
Except maybe the Japanese.
Here we diverge into two stories,
Since we don’t actually know either one,But in the magic of poetry we combine;
As the two endings of Oedipus at Colonus,
As the two endings of Moses,
We will splice them together for you.
Although they put down on the west of the island,
There is an infernally hot land breeze.It is normally 100 degrees in the shade,
And this is the sintering sun with a land breeze.
The prevailing Easterlies only strike an ocean breeze
Across the wretched lagoon and impassable bramble.
Noonan and Earheart make to the southeast
Where the food flocks in the manner of bird
And fish, some of them poisonous.
They use a pocket-knife, perhaps to fashion
Spears to spear fish. They eat with their fingers.
They catch birds too trusting to the touch.
They use an eyepiece from the sex-
Tent to light campfires. They carry the sex-
Tant box with them like a meal locker,
Because sometimes there are leftovers,
But many mouths and claws clawing for
And over them. To say there is sleep
Is nonsense. To say there is sleep is to be
Eaten in bites at a time. They must romantically
Sleep in shifts, watching over each other
With a switch to ward off the crabs.
Maybe they use the pole with tweezers
That used to pass notes between them.
They wait and wait for rain. This doesn’t
Always come, but when it does, they sop it up
With some raggedy gauze cloth, and spoon it up
From little hollows where it is left, using
A broken bottle bottom, or anti-freckle ointment
Jar part. They sip like they once sipped champagne,
Not even like shots, though these are shots of water,
And full-time thirst. Not out of mercy the Japanese
Come in a fishing boat, or tug boat, something
Inconspicuous. They load up the plane on the northwest
End of the island, then search the brush for the
Aviators. Now around the bend of beach Noonan
And Amelia Earheart spy the Jap boat, lugging
Their skunk-works, ultra-modern, all-metal plane
With two motors rated at 600 Horsepower each,
Riding astride a Japanese ship with the red dot of blood
Flag, and what else to do but hide in the scraggly brush?
Imagine, Murphy asks, to hide from sure rescue!
But this isn’t rescue, nor hiding.
Thwacking through the lagoon behind them
Is a Japanese skiff, overhead rumbles a scout plane,
Noonan is nothing if not angry for a drink,
Even Saki, but here is the problem: this is not
Quite what they bargained for.
A Japanese soldier, barefoot, steps from the brush
And seizes Amelia by the arm, a bayonet
About to skewer her hollowed out stomach.
Noonan spears him with the pocket-knife
Fish-spear, right into the carotid, thinking
Crazily of eating the man straight away,
But that is not possible. They push their attacker
Under some bushes, and steal his clothes.
Delirium makes them throw off their shoes;
Now they look Japanese!
One of them will make it out of here,
But not on this boat. Others come after them.
Run, but of course, without shoes on,
It’s all a great pain, a folly, a Murphy.
Coral beaches cut western feet into ribbons.
They are hauled into custody.
They are taken aboard the ship with their plane,
And go to their pacifist war all the same.
To be dead in. They are surprised by the length
Of their trip to
(The comfort of flying, versus the tedium of boating).
There is a tarp over the plane to conceal it from spotters.
There is a cabin they share as a cell.
They are bones with some bitten flesh draped over them.
They are interrogated often, and beaten,
Especially Noonan. They begin to confess
That they bought the Japanese clothes from a passing
Freighter, or that someone was with them,
Or they killed one of the sailors. They confess
They are hungry and thirsty. They are strangely
Left alone to rot, until they dock and are taken
To internment. This happens across several islands,
For the length of the war, which breaks out
In 1941, and ends, and by then a number of people
Have seen them, and their plane in parts,
Last in
Are ordered to burn the plane. Hard to burn aluminum,
But that’s what I read;
They both already dead,
Executed by the Japanese.
A year and three months after Earhart and Noonan
Had landed on the reef with their Lockheed Electra Settlers came to
Which had been named by Captain Joshua Coffin,
Of the whaling ship
out of
To commemorate his ship’s owner,
United States Congressman Gideon Gardner
In 1825.
The settlers, however, were Gilbert Islanders,
And they named the island Nikumaroro,
Which is the home of Nei Manganibuka,
Their tall fair-skinned goddess
Who came from
And the lore of ocean navigation.
These islanders colonized Nikumaroro for
Under an Irishman named Gallagher,
Whose first cousin was also Murphy.
These settlers knew of some plane parts on the reef,
Something round was sticking out of the water, and there Were some broken parts on land, which Noonan
Had tossed aside when breaking out the windows
To make a still, and in deeper water,
Where the Japanese struggled to crane up the plane
To their ship by first winching it through the shallows
Out through the surf, and floated it up onto their deck
From pontoons of some sort. Everything
Being secret, since they were spies spying on spies,
That’s what it felt like to the Japanese,
And the murder of their sailor was proof.
Suffering, there is suffering and war,
And folly in plenty, and the bones of the dead
Are hidden from view, but still witness
The past and its god Murphy,
Who sits to this day on atolls
Casting hexes on Cruise ships.
How can one person like Amelia Earhart,
Reach so high, only to be averaged out
By an ignominious end?
While another, say Van Gogh, can be a ruin
All life long, a failure, only to burst
Like fireworks after he’s dead?
The gods envy if any person should be great
In his or her own time. They scorn those
Who might be that threat to them,
And send us the little god Murphy:
Murphy, who knows just which end of the glass
To hold, when drinking a pint,
So the beer goes straight to the floor,
Without passing through the Kidneys.
Do not attempt to be a god, nor be pacifist,
Nor an immortal poet, for that is sure death.Fight when the fight comes to you,
And only be sure to be on the side of right
And good. Spit in the eye of all false and evil
Authority. Do not let anyone make a flattered sop
Of you. (That includes elections).
Spurn glamour and glitter of all sorts,
Especially gold and any abundance.
Keep your feet on earth, and your soul in
God’s house, and if it is not God’s house,
Get the hell out of there.
Love all as yourself, and be as tough on yourself
As the others.
Remember the rich are already dead
And the poor are the hope of us all,
For they have more fortitude than all the twits
Who gladly walk over the bones of the dead
To stand on
There the lost fliers also belong, ever to rest,
With the bones of the dead.
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Life-Saving Drill
In
empty waves the lifeguards drill
The entering with craft.
Between themA vessel white as surf and blind,
Dumbly buoyant as they race beside.
Muscle
of youth weakly points the hull
Into
the green biceps of the wave;Then the white chaos of its crash
Drives them back, the girl and the boy.
Once
again, as lowering sun makes gold
Of
them, her lunge aboard will tipThe prow above a wave. A clack
Of oars, another running heave,
And
he is on with her, but she falls out.
His
hand outstretched lifts her into him.The dumb boat only dances back
To shore. They clamber out and haul it round.
Again
they run their golden dash
And
ply the waves. Both aboard,They then commence to rowing.
This summer their youth is what they save.
They
reach and pull in tandem. Far
Away
they wait and turn for shore.Next summer they will be the same;
The boat alone will age.
John
Sevcik
Sunday, July 1, 2012
New Found Land
To
To
The Marquesas, or
To
Perhaps to
To the distant-most outlandish
Place, keep a bowl of soup,
A glass of wine, a
Of the heart and mind,
Where art can grow on half
The cost, and half again,
Or less than that.
Or better still a newfound land,
A sandbar off
Or
To plan, the art utopia
No one can achieve in life,
But hanging dreams of it export
The beauty to which all resort.
John Sevcik
Thursday, June 21, 2012
Blame the Sun: an Ode
Oh, Sun, you fickle star,
Not even star, but coin of gold-shine,
Now near, now far,
A season-maker as you climb the sky,
Or drop Dow-Jones-like
Into your depression.
What’s with you, Sun?
Van Gogh and you:
Who else likes to stare
So wildly at the world?
Give me an intensity break.
Soft, and pray you:
Meditate and find
The moderate path.
Not everyone has air conditioning,
Or heat when you’re
Philandering at night.
Where’s your mom
In all of this?
I mean, God –
Who do you think
You are?
John Sevcik
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
There Is News of the World to Tell
Kind Voices in Evening Light
January 6, 52°, evening in my front yard garden
Looks down the hill of Wingohocking Terrace,
January 6, 52°, evening in my front yard garden
Looks down the hill of Wingohocking Terrace,
A good place to plant terrace,
According to its native pre-Columbian namers,
And I am hoeing a row for winter arugula, the ground soft
And dark, under the waning blue glow of the sky, in the
Shadow of a rising waxing gibbous, when up the hill
Climb two figures, one in the roadway, one on our sidewalk,
Who calls “Hello, John” in a kind voice – my neighbor Olivia,
A young grandmother, who leans over the fence and asks
Whether I am turning the soil over to help it fallow,
And I explain my purpose, and she goes in like starlight
Passing by through trees as one passes,
And after a while, as I dig, and sprinkle out the tiny seeds
From husk envelopes that look like tiny, crisp, pale bananas,
I hear “Hey, John” from the downhill side, closer, as Nate, Jr.,
Rises up his steps across his yard to home, even talking on
A cell phone, and these kind voices that know my name,
Even in the shade of a warm, winter evening, and whose names
I can feel as well in that situational way,
In that sensing of the voice and its timbre,
And the kindness of it neighbor to my heart. Then
I go out back and cry at the moon’s sweet light, and how
It reminds me also of my old mother’s hair, as did
The bunch of Queen Anne’s lace that leaned over our table
And sat with us for a few meals after she died, and which I
Stroked as kindly as her hair, thinking it was her
In another form, the form of soft soul kindness, as are these,
My neighbors, still with me.
John Sevcik
Happy Birthday Morning
There is news of the world to tell, at 6:00 a.m.,
After wind has lashed the rain against the house for hours
And the moon looks out at last through torn clouds,
The silence raising me from sleep alongside you,
To find why this silence, why the stillness of the dark?
I enter your studio and watch at the windows
How street lights pour their apricot hue
On your unfinished art,
And the finished pieces,
And how blue the moonlit clouds are above,
And how yellow the all-night living room lamp is at Karma’s,
When one car nudges darkly down the road,
Looking for a parking space,
Backs up the hill with reverse lights gleaming. Then a train
Passes though the yard space next to Mr. Boyd’s,
Gleaming green windows like the frequency of an oarfish,
Then slows on the line of Wingohocking Station to a rest.
The black auto tries another impossible space, comes to rest
Tight next to the parked cars below Carina’s.
Its amber emergency lights begin a silent alarm,
Be careful, be careful, don’t hit us,
And a figure unfolds from the door,
Circles behind the trunk, opens the back door, raises
Something invisible and climbs the stairs
Toward a porch light colder than the moon,
Cold as a refrigerator light, and it appears
To be a mother delivering her child in a blanket,
To a nanny, or relative,
In the midst of sleep, while the car waits warning, warning,
In the lonely, silent street.
The high moon looks down from the heavens.
The quiet street waits with the flashing car. The sky
Moans a low note of wind somewhere just above our roofs,
But careful not to ruffle a hair in the street,
Nor wake rudely a little person left
and looked back toward, as the mother
Descends to the waiting car, turns,
And waves goodbye to someone
In the window or door, in the hesitating guise of someone
Sweetly missing already the one borne into the world,
Before driving on. The car calms its lights, just once
Shining red at the corner, like two partners, two hearts.
John Sevcik
And I am hoeing a row for winter arugula, the ground soft
And dark, under the waning blue glow of the sky, in the
Shadow of a rising waxing gibbous, when up the hill
Climb two figures, one in the roadway, one on our sidewalk,
Who calls “Hello, John” in a kind voice – my neighbor Olivia,
A young grandmother, who leans over the fence and asks
Whether I am turning the soil over to help it fallow,
And I explain my purpose, and she goes in like starlight
Passing by through trees as one passes,
And after a while, as I dig, and sprinkle out the tiny seeds
From husk envelopes that look like tiny, crisp, pale bananas,
I hear “Hey, John” from the downhill side, closer, as Nate, Jr.,
Rises up his steps across his yard to home, even talking on
A cell phone, and these kind voices that know my name,
Even in the shade of a warm, winter evening, and whose names
I can feel as well in that situational way,
In that sensing of the voice and its timbre,
And the kindness of it neighbor to my heart. Then
I go out back and cry at the moon’s sweet light, and how
It reminds me also of my old mother’s hair, as did
The bunch of Queen Anne’s lace that leaned over our table
And sat with us for a few meals after she died, and which I
Stroked as kindly as her hair, thinking it was her
In another form, the form of soft soul kindness, as are these,
My neighbors, still with me.
John Sevcik
Happy Birthday Morning
There is news of the world to tell, at 6:00 a.m.,
After wind has lashed the rain against the house for hours
And the moon looks out at last through torn clouds,
The silence raising me from sleep alongside you,
To find why this silence, why the stillness of the dark?
I enter your studio and watch at the windows
How street lights pour their apricot hue
On your unfinished art,
And the finished pieces,
And how blue the moonlit clouds are above,
And how yellow the all-night living room lamp is at Karma’s,
When one car nudges darkly down the road,
Looking for a parking space,
Backs up the hill with reverse lights gleaming. Then a train
Passes though the yard space next to Mr. Boyd’s,
Gleaming green windows like the frequency of an oarfish,
Then slows on the line of Wingohocking Station to a rest.
The black auto tries another impossible space, comes to rest
Tight next to the parked cars below Carina’s.
Its amber emergency lights begin a silent alarm,
Be careful, be careful, don’t hit us,
And a figure unfolds from the door,
Circles behind the trunk, opens the back door, raises
Something invisible and climbs the stairs
Toward a porch light colder than the moon,
Cold as a refrigerator light, and it appears
To be a mother delivering her child in a blanket,
To a nanny, or relative,
In the midst of sleep, while the car waits warning, warning,
In the lonely, silent street.
The high moon looks down from the heavens.
The quiet street waits with the flashing car. The sky
Moans a low note of wind somewhere just above our roofs,
But careful not to ruffle a hair in the street,
Nor wake rudely a little person left
and looked back toward, as the mother
Descends to the waiting car, turns,
And waves goodbye to someone
In the window or door, in the hesitating guise of someone
Sweetly missing already the one borne into the world,
Before driving on. The car calms its lights, just once
Shining red at the corner, like two partners, two hearts.
John Sevcik
Monday, January 23, 2012
The solidarity of freedom
In Chinatown, once Little Italy,
Until Marco Polo brought all things foreign
To New York City, I had on its periphery,
Say, Lower Anatolia, an unfurnished
Apartment share with some other editors, actors, and writers,
Not quite a cold-water flat, just a refrigerator (empty)
And a mattress I dragged in off the street
And a pillow I bought and carried across the Village
In winter or something cold like that
And barren – well, the sun wasn’t near.
There were roaches that ran on the lips,
Wide-awake noticing of hurried shapes
Darting, horrid self-slapping, un-sleep.
Follow that without dawn like February,
Cloudy and dark like Dr. Zhivago
During the Revolution, and no palace
Or snow in sunlight, but I was
Hungry and cold and found
A hovel of a Chinese restaurant:
One small room filled with men
In Red Chinese uniforms, slate gray,
Cold, huddling round the few
Connected tables in Amish seating,
In other words, arranged regardless of
Group, one group, all of us having soup.
I settled into one bench, accepted
Without glance or comment, between
Small men whose bodies held their
Warmth on either side to me, and I
To them, and as I hunched closer to the
Leveling table we shared, I felt myself
Resorting to that Peasant memory my father
Transmitted into me from long ago in Europe,
Even as I ate with hurried relish
In the steam of our mingling breath,
It felt like some painting of suffering,
Though all around me there was more
Of it than mine, and more comfort
Because we were all there was of it, together.
For this I thank all of China,
Marco Polo, and the Revolution,
Including mine, in my green Army coat,
And my father, who climbed
From scholarship to engineer, then married
My mother, a landowner and landowner’s daughter,
Then dispossessed by Communists
As these lunch companions in my circle
Perhaps lost their own farm, or freedom,
To the want of history and its resentments.
John Sevcik
Until Marco Polo brought all things foreign
To New York City, I had on its periphery,
Say, Lower Anatolia, an unfurnished
Apartment share with some other editors, actors, and writers,
Not quite a cold-water flat, just a refrigerator (empty)
And a mattress I dragged in off the street
And a pillow I bought and carried across the Village
In winter or something cold like that
And barren – well, the sun wasn’t near.
There were roaches that ran on the lips,
Wide-awake noticing of hurried shapes
Darting, horrid self-slapping, un-sleep.
Follow that without dawn like February,
Cloudy and dark like Dr. Zhivago
During the Revolution, and no palace
Or snow in sunlight, but I was
Hungry and cold and found
A hovel of a Chinese restaurant:
One small room filled with men
In Red Chinese uniforms, slate gray,
Cold, huddling round the few
Connected tables in Amish seating,
In other words, arranged regardless of
Group, one group, all of us having soup.
I settled into one bench, accepted
Without glance or comment, between
Small men whose bodies held their
Warmth on either side to me, and I
To them, and as I hunched closer to the
Leveling table we shared, I felt myself
Resorting to that Peasant memory my father
Transmitted into me from long ago in Europe,
Even as I ate with hurried relish
In the steam of our mingling breath,
It felt like some painting of suffering,
Though all around me there was more
Of it than mine, and more comfort
Because we were all there was of it, together.
For this I thank all of China,
Marco Polo, and the Revolution,
Including mine, in my green Army coat,
And my father, who climbed
From scholarship to engineer, then married
My mother, a landowner and landowner’s daughter,
Then dispossessed by Communists
As these lunch companions in my circle
Perhaps lost their own farm, or freedom,
To the want of history and its resentments.
John Sevcik